When Wisdom Gets Removed and the Thunder Rolls

My memory in the process of writing these blog posts was sadly lacking! I completely forgot to share our favorite memory from the beginning of our relationship!

If you'll bear with me, I will take you back to Tuesday, July 29, 2014 and Wednesday, July 30, 2014. 

David remembers Tuesday as a day of fear and anxiety, of not knowing if his wisdom tooth extractions were going to end up with him in the hospital due to his body's slow clotting abilities. In fact, it is David who reminded me of this day in our history because to him, this was the moment he knew he loved me. We had made a habit of texting around the clock and Tuesday was no different except I knew he had surgery and he was definitely nervous about bleeding out and not waking up. I don't know how it came down to music but I remember us sending each other country music clips from the 90s to help distract him. It seemed to work until the afternoon brought out more fears in David than I could calm down. This is the moment I mentioned a few posts back where I prayed for God to show me David's faith. It was around 3am and I didn't want David to be too tired right before the surgery so we ended our conversation. I prayed for about an hour, lifting up David's health and spiritual life, asking for quick healing and a clear view of his faith. 

We both only ended up waking up at 6am and soon after, my phone went off. David had sent me a verse without any knowledge of my burdened heart or prayers the night before. I was comforted and felt at peace about our progressing friendship and set out to help him maintain his nerves as he was taken to the dentist office. While he was in the waiting room, he mentioned that he really likes "Thunder Rolls" by Garth Brooks. I wasn't in a place to call him but I wanted to comfort him so I began typing out the lyrics to the song as a technologically advanced form of singing to him. Corny? Very much so. Did I care? Not one bit, I was falling for him. 

His surgery went very fast (I'm not jealous :P, his was merely 30min and mine was roughly 2 1/2 hours) and despite my initial push for him to nap, he said he was home alone for the weekend and wanted me to keep texting him so I would know if he ended up having a bad reaction to anything. It took all of my self-control to not hop over to make him jello and pudding and mashed potatoes and rice and ice cream and and and and. The best I could do was put a get-well kit together for him and deliver it to one of his friends so they could deliver it to him. I didn't know what he had or didn't have so there was an ice pack, two boxes of jello, two boxes of pudding, herbal tea to help stop the bleeding and sooth the gums, and gauze. 

To add to it all, his grandmother's (Mamos) health had taken a turn for the worse about a week before David's surgery. She was in a coma and his family had gone to see her in case God called her home. David has a very close connection with his Mamos and it broke his heart that he was not there to say good-bye but due to the surgery, he was in no place to make the eight hour trip to see her. Comforting him was very difficult from across town but it allowed an opportunity for him to share his favorite memories of his Mamos and Papos with me. 

We ended up talking all night long and though I wish I had encouraged him more forcefully to sleep, I look back and remember that being the night that I fell 100% in love with him and how much I wanted to be by his side forever. Tuesday July 29, 2014, David fell in love with me. Wednesday, July 30, 2014, I fell in love with David and allowed it to begin growing without limits. 

PS: Mamos ended up making an (almost) full recovery. She learned that she is diabetic and has slowly worked toward restoring her health. She still has a ways to go but we are all so happy to be blessed with another year with her. I have only been blessed to speak with her over the phone a few times and in person over the course of a family wedding but I love her dearly and can see why David holds her so close to his heart. She has both inspired and encouraged David, supported his dreams and ignited a fire to fight for his future. 

Eternal Supplement

Am I weird for feeling bursts of joy after ordering my vitamins? Call me a freak for living the way I do and eating the things I do but there really is no denying the results.

When my diet is right, stress is managed, and mind is positive, my body feels "lighter", my skin is happy and overall I have a better outlook. All this aside, prayer has an even bigger hand in my mental and emotional health.

Just as if I went days without my supplements and my body began to slip back to its old cravings and old sluggishness...days without prayer and praise cause me to reclaim burdens that I had previously surrendered to the Lord and begin to loose sight of God's providential hand in my life. I become comfortable with living in my old ways.

With my illness, my body isn't able to absorb the nutrients from my food. Instead, it allows unwelcome food particles into my bloodstream. All of this happens over time and if I don't stay on top of my herbal supplements, my gut won't heal. When there is a lack of nutrients and overload of toxins or food in my blood, it leaves my brain foggy, thoughts scrambled and my concentration is far gone.

In a way, our spiritual walk is very similar. If we merely go to church, maybe even read our bibles daily but don't allow God to touch our hearts, we are allowing "nutrients" to escape under our nose. When we aren't solid in our faith, we often times allow unwelcome thoughts and situations to have front row passes to our heart and mind. We are not void of Godly influence, we just aren't absorbing it....we aren't surrounded by evil but it slowly takes over.

I feel joy when I order vitamins because I know that I am working toward healing my body and finding health that I honestly have never had before. This is very similar to the joy I feel when I seek the Lord in His word or through worship. He alone can heal my heart, He alone can carry my burdens, and His plan alone will prosper. His words restore my soul to a place of peace and childlike faith.

Essentially, He is my eternal supplement. He doesn't have a maximum dose nor any negative side effects.

Sometimes the pill is hard to swallow when it is one of conviction but it's just what the Great Physician ordered.